Saturday, January 19, 2008

Desperately trying to hold onto the joy despite...

the fact that we learned yesterday that I miscarried again. My doctor couldn't find the heartbeat after about ten minutes of trying. He immediately sent me to get an ultrasound. I knew it was not going to be good news when the technician deliberately moved the screen out of my view. I would have been at ten weeks, but it is not to be. My body doesn't seem to know it yet and I'll just have to wait. The weird thing is that I was just starting to feel a bit queasy this week and that made me feel more confident that things were going well. This is my second miscarriage in five months. God's ways are not my ways and I'm just praying for peace right now.


14 comments:

Meredith said...

Oh Carmie, honey I am so so sorry to read this. I wish I could give you a big hug, I am so sad for you. Please know that we are praying for the repose of this new precious soul for you and for your peace of mind. I am truly sorry. Love, Meredith

Rebecca said...

Carmie, I am so sorry. I will be praying for you in the days and weeks ahead.

Alice Gunther said...

Shedding tears with you, Carmie. I am so very, very sorry.

May Our Lady give you comfort.

His Servant: Ann Kraeger said...

Oh, girl, you are so much in my prayers. May Our Lady hold you so close and comfort your grieving heart. Take comfort, dear heart, one of these days soon, in knowing that you have fulfilled your vocation in sending another perfect soul to heaven. God bless you and I will remember you at Mass this weekend.

Love2Learn Mom said...

I'm so sorry to hear about your loss. We'll be praying for you in this tough time!

thetuckerbunch said...

I'm so sorry. You are in my prayers.

Mary G said...

Carmen,

I'm so sorry ... this happened to me back in 2004/2005 (right when JP2 was dying!). Anyway, the doctor at the time told me that often women will miscarry if they get pregnant within 6 months of the previous miscarriage ... so hang there, keep up the knitting to calm the soul and enjoy life!

You'll be in my prayers in a special novena!

MaryM said...

Oh, Carmen, I am so, so sorry to hear this. Please know that you are in my prayers and let me know if there is anything I can do for you guys.

Donna Howey said...

I am so sorry, Carmie. You are in my prayers each new morning.

Kimberlee said...

I am so sorry for your loss, Carmie. I pray you will find comfort in Our Lady's loving care and protection.

Jennifer said...

I'm so sorry. You will be in our prayers.

Jordan said...

I am so sorry, Carmie. I will be praying for you. I have recently lost a baby too. God bless you and your family.

Catholic Mom said...

May you feel the gentle embrace of Blessed Mother and the consolation of Christ. God Bless You.

Kim said...

Oh how awful. : ( You are in my prayers.